I’m getting desperate for a taste of a donut.

Oh Lawd. Just look at that heavenly goodness. This is by far one of the best donuts I have ever had in my life. You can find it and other amazing gourmet donuts at District Donuts Sliders Brew in New Orleans. And thank goodness it is far away from me in another state because I’m pretty sure I would go every single day of my life.

So the past few weeks I’ve been back to a clean eating lifestyle, allowing myself one, occasionally two, cheats a week. It’s been rough getting back on the cycle, but I’m finally getting used to it especially since I’m seeing some progress. That being said, I DESPERATELY am feeling like I need some chocolate or some other sweet. I have cut out pretty much all sugars and it’s difficult for sure.

But I don’t think you’re here to read all about my diet and my cravings for food I can’t eat. No matter how desperate I am for a taste of some chocolate.

I just felt a need to share something today. I think that over years it is safe to assume that a person changes and develops, hopefully into a more self-respecting person, especially a woman. There was a dark period in my early twenties where I really didn’t have any for myself, but grew to. And oddly enough, the man that broke me down the most, completely shattered me and gave me the trust issues I have, is the one who taught me how to respect myself.

I think we can all agree that there are a lot of men out there that are just fuckboys and will say whatever they have to in order to get what they want. One such man, or BOY, has been in and out of my life for I’m gonna estimate the past.. five or six years. Wow. He used to say WHATEVER he had to say to get certain things from me. But the past three years or so, I have never entertained it. Because it’s not worth it. He would make promises and never fulfill.

It got to the point that he would not leave me alone and I needed to block him, his number, instagram, and snapchat. And at some point near the end of last year he made a separate instagram just to get back into contact with me. And the more I tell him I have no interest, the more desperate he becomes. Which I don’t understand. He’s not unattractive. I think it’s more that he wants what he can’t have.

But this dude is so desperate for my attention that he said he would pay me 6000 dollars to be “sexual” with him. UM WHAT!? hahahaha. Wow. That’s some desperation. I think more desperation that I am having to eat some chocolate right now. Are men getting so desperate to get what they can’t have that now they want to offer crazy things? Which I know I’d never see that money if I agreed, which I won’t, because I respect myself, but it’s hilarious to me. And also completely disgusting. Which I told him.

So here’s the thing, men, don’t be desperate. And women, if he appears desperate and wants to make promises if you do something for him be it money, time spent, a date, etc, it probably won’t happen. Don’t be naive. And also, respect yourself more than to give into that type of behavior anyway.

Now that I’ve spilled on this, I hope he reads it because honestly, I’m tired of repeating myself and now he can see how I feel over and over if he so wishes. As for me, I’m going to watch the finale of the Bachelor Winter Games and try to not cave and eat my girl scout cookies. Peace, Love, and Food Over Dudes.


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